"BEAR"

Meet "Bear!" While I am sure you are thinking "What the Hell?' "Bear," is a very large part of our family. When my son Patrick, was born "bear" arrived in a basket of flowers. From then on, he went everywhere we went! EVERYWHERE!!! "Bear" is now seventeen, he has been bathed once! And that, as I recall, was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made! Patrick was three, and while at preschool one day my Mother and I decided to throw "bear" into the washer. "What the Hell!" Patrick got in the car asked for his "bear" and went crazy! When we got home he put him in the dirt and stepped all over him! You see, it is not just the feel of "bear" it is the SMELL! Which, so you know is ass!! Seventeen is very painful for me. I miss that little boy who went nowhere without his "bear" There is such an empty feeling inside of me. I sometimes go into the closet where "Bear" now resides, and smell him. "What the Hell" right? Somehow, I now get it! He is and always will be part of the family. And like "Bear" I will forever miss that little boy who never went anywhere without him. I LOVE YOU FOREVER, PATRICK! MOM XOXO

"DADDY"

I do not have much memory of my early childhood with my Dad. I know that he always worked at least two jobs so we could have the things that we needed, and wanted. When I was about nine we moved. It was not very far, just a new house. It was then, that my Dad and I really started to not relate very much anymore, at all. While I am not sure why, "What The Hell" it happened. I always admired my girlfriends that had a great relationship with their Fathers. I guess something about girls and their Dads. I just did not have it! Somewhere down the road, after my son Patrick was born, my Dad and I also were born. He, and I have been very close since then. He is a great, Grandfather. The boys all call him "Dad." "Dad" is now 88, soon to be 89. His mind is not as good as it used to be. I am sorry for him. He is a Marine, and does not like to not be sharp all the time. I am sad for all the years that we did not share together. But so very, very grateful for all the days we have now. He is really a funny guy! "What the Hell" I never new that! I hug and kiss him. And "What the Hell" he even tells me he loves me! Thanks Daddy, I love you too! XOXO

ANGUS MILLS (ANGY)

It is about nine years ago that I bought Angus. Some guy was standing on the side of the road holding him up like Simba! I could not resist. (big surprise) My son named him after some guy in a band. Angus, was pretty crazy in his early years! He loved to jump the fence, all 7 feet of it! Once we were on a cruise. Angus jumped, ended up in the pound, and then almost died from Kennel cough! "What the Hell" is that? It was then that he lost a little weight, in the ball area! About a year ago, he started having a very hard time breathing. I took him to the vet. Poor Angus, the vet said he had cancer, and had about six months to live! So "What The Hell" I brought his happy ass in the house to live the rest of his life with me! Since then, we have been complete companions! OH YEAH! I get up , Angus gets up, I go outside, Angus goes outside, I go to the bathroom, Angus goes with me! Just so you know, Angus can open the door by himself! My husband gets so pissed at him because he follows me wherever I go! EVERYWHERE!! "I tell him he likes me he can't help it." So I ask you, "What the Hell?" The vet missed it on this one! I am grateful!!!! I love my friend, and worry about the day when it does come. Who will follow me around and open doors for me? Who will be my "Angy Mills?" "WHAT THE HELL"

'HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LOVE YOU'

I believe that I have already established that I love Rod Stewart! Whenever I hear the song Have I told you lately that I love you, I cry! "What The Hell" It really hits me right in the gut. We do not tell each other enough how much we love each other! And, while I believe that actions speak louder then words, I still like to hear it! I tell my husband, and my son every morning before they leave I love them. Maybe, I do not tell my husband that enough! Pat is, well, lets just call him grumpy! So I search my soul and try to figure out what I can do to make him not so grumpy! But "What the Hell" is this???? He is happy when he has toys, and hot baths, and his snuggie! He loves to smoke! "What the hell" can I do about that? He likes to stay home with his family. But doesn't have much to say to us. He would change the world if he could. Gets on his soapbox, and goes off. That makes him very happy!!! I am thinking that today when he gets home I will say "HEY, HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LOVE YOU?" I mean "What the Hell"right? "Without change there would be no butterflies"

Whoopi Goldberg

I have always liked Whoopi! She is funny, a great actress, and I so love her on the "View" It occurred to me today that she also says "What the Hell." So did I get it from her? Or, did she somehow get it from me? Hmm. I think perhaps I got it from her but "What the Hell!" She doesn't own it right? God I need a job!!!!! Do you think I am in a rut? Now, I am blogging about Whoopi!! What the Hell is that? Unfortunately, I got married when high school was over. Not much college. I am amateur at everything, and professional at nothing!! So Whoopi what does a girl do now?? I keep thinking that one day I will wake up and POOF!!!!! I will know what it is I am on this earth for! What the hell! Maybe the "View" could do a whole show about that! Those girls seem to have the answers to most everything else. Today, I need all my angels to get around me and give me a great big push, in the right direction! Whoopi had Patrick in the movie Ghost! What the Hell! Maybe, my angel just has not landed yet! Until then.......................................

"These are a few of my favorite Things"

When my son Patrick was a baby I used to sing to him! One of those many songs was "These are a few of my favorite things." So here a few of mine. Kids! I love them all. Little ones big ones and those who worry me! "What the Hell" Puppies! God I love puppies! When we moved to the woods my Sara had nine of them! It was awesome! Nine puppies times puppy shit is not awesome!! Cats of course, What the Hell! And horses, they are so beautiful! And did I mention LOBSTER!!!!!!!! Dripping in butter!!! What the hell is that???? GOOD! I love my son, my parents. They are so awesome. My cousin Eddie who is the lobster king!!! So many favorites. So many blessings! I also have a list of things that are not my favorites. We won't go there today! But just so you know Valentines day is not on the favorite list anymore! "What the Hell"

RON

Mary, my sister is six years older than I. (you don't look it Mar) When I was about 13 or so Mary brought home a guy from college. His name was Ron. He was a big guy with a big voice, from New Jersey. I instantly fell in love with him! And so did Mary. They married on February 10, 1973. He was the heart of our family. But to me he was the best person, friend, brother in law, Dad, Son in law, and most of all husband anyone could ever know! I used to say "What The Hell" how did she find this guy? Why can't I find one like him? The answer is simple. God only made one Ron!! On January 30, 2005, Ron was sitting in a chair in the bedroom. He and my sister were talking, and getting ready to go to breakfast. Ron just fell over and died! "WHAT THE HELL" is that! He was 57 years old. Today I heard something on Oprah about the phrase "time heals all things." She said, that it is not the time that heals the pain, but what you do with the time! I thought that was so cool! I never thought my sister would survive without her Ron! Guess again! She has a bucket list, and stays right on top of it! She told me the other day that one of the things that she promised herself was that she would never cry all the time. Mary only allows herself to cry in one place. "What The Hell" What a great idea! She is awesome. However, she is my sister, if you know what I mean! I miss Ron everyday. He always made things better. No one does anything like he did. Save me a seat brother in law! "What The Hell" Love "Jenn"